Coming Clean (Hilary Duff)Let's go back

Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no lie
I defy

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm cloming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

I don't know what's wrong with my "shout out" link...does anyone know what's going on?or what I should do to bring it back?
thanks

sister act is a very funny movie...here is the lyrics to one of the songs that were sung in church:)which I absolutely love.

I Will Follow Him
Follow Him wherever He may go,
And near Him, I always will be
For nothing can keep me away,
He is my destiny.

I will follow Him,
Ever since He touched my heart I knew,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away, away from His love.

I love Him, I love Him, I love Him,
And where He goes,
I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow.
he'll always be my true love, my true love, my true love
from now until forever, forever, forever

I will follow Him,
Follow Him wherever He may go,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away, away from His love...

We will follow Him,
Follow Him wherever He may go,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep us away, away from His love...

I had to go to some where I love...do you know where is it?Chapters!!!stayed there for 3 hours...read and looked at all kinds of books....Mystery..Self help...relationship...astronomy...philosophy...religion...leadership and managment...
In the relationship section there was this book: "how do you know that you are really in love" and had paragraph which was interesting...
...love has 4 phases...
1)Infatuation
2)Romance
3)Deepen interest
4)Commitment
the whole thing seems so far fetched....I want to become perfect in relationship stuff...and like everything in my life, if I go after something I want to learn, no matter what I would excel it...I know I can do it....and I know my gardian angles and grand mother and my grand father are looking out for me...I can feel their presence...I know they are giving me signs and leading me to the direction I should be at...the way I would be the happiest....

I have decided that I no longer feel like a bird in a jail...I have decided to leave Toronto for a while....May be McGill is good for me...May be Calgery...or Sarnia....I thought there might be some thing here in Toronto that would keep me here..but I see except the love of my parents and my brothers, I feel lonelier than ever...I have tons of friends but I need to just move away...I need to find myself...I know its going to be hard...I know there are lots of unknowns involved...I know now that I might lose somthings but I am sure now that I will gain other valuable things in life..but I just feel that this is the right time now...I feel I am ready to take my next step...screw Toronto...I know why Vahid left here now..I know why he hates it here so much...now this hatered can be something in common for me and this friend....never mind love and emotions...

I just want to throw up...I just want to scream as loud as I can...I just want to cry till I fall sleep..have you ever had your heart broken..teared apart...well that's exactly how I felt...I hate that I am always exactly sure what's going on or how other people feel about others...and it 100% comes true...I hate it that I am always the bridge to other people's happiness and never to my own..don't take me wrong I love to make everyone specially my friends happy but I am so sick and tired of staying in one spot....why can't I see my life for a change...I wished I had a video camera and would tape my acts...and would look at it and judge...once again...some one I thought I liked betrayed me...well its okay...it seems this is the story of my life nowadays...whatever...damn feelings...damn my dreams....fairy tales don't come true....I read in my horoscope today that my wish will come true...and it did...I am not confused any more...I know....thank you god for clearing this one up as well...but I don't know if I should appreciate you or be sad and angry....you are the judge...please be fair....I am tired...once in my life give me something I emotionally need....

me:thanks for taking the time and listening to me and being patient with me
my friend:Its my honor and I am not kinding
....can he be nicer?...I am sooooooo confused...????

BEAUTY AND THE BEAST

I love this fairy tale..one of my favorites:)I don't know why new ones are not as nice..I mean they have more comedy theme than romance;)
anyways I never forget the first time I saw it..it was at Sina's house and they had a gathering..I was 15-16 I don't remember..but both Sina and I were trying to understand it completely;)we both used to go to English classes together at some point:)anyways..last time I saw it here again..I could understand fully all the songs and everything;)I remember how we were proud even to understand some parts;)it was more of a watching and deducting than actually watching and listening and understanding;)

Today my prof is coming back:(!!although I like him a lot and he is a wonderful prof, but I am unhappy because I really don't have the result to show:(and he probably will get mad...if only he doesn't come to talk to me..anyways..right now I am working with GC and I am learning alot about it..thanks to Tony and Ian..the other side of the wet lab I work in has an IC and Tony and this guy from Turky work there..the Turk guy is so interesting..he is actually a professor assistant at a university in Turky and he is on research leave here in Canada..anyways he is very fun and easy to talk to..but thats very funny...how talking to non persian guys are always more exciting and more interesting than persian guys!!!anyways I think Tony will kill me next time;)because the turk guy doesn't stop talking to me and Tony is there to help him!!!and I swear its not me who start the conversation like always..its him who starts it!!;)

on Saturday one of my friends who went to Iran for a month came back here and a bunch of my friends and I went to see her at red rose...I can't beilieve how I have changed...before if I hear about Iran I would want to go back and live there but now..its just a distant thing...we had to explain some of the common behavior in Iran to two of our friends who has been here since they were kids and wouldn't understand some things..like why boys in Iran can with be disrespectful to you on the streets and even physically abuse you!!!!and you can't really do anything about it...or so many different things that here we take it for granted..like 911...I know in Iran there is 110 but still I don't think its really does anything compare to 911..anyways...last night I had nearly a serious talk with one of my friends...its amazing how some people can calm you so much..he is like water on fire(I am usually firy;))...anyways..I am begining to realize that I am big time dreamer!!!I used to deny it..but now I have concluded after several experiements;)that unfortuantely I day dream alot..anyways...it has to stop..at least interms of human relation...
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I wish once in my life...I become cinderella...once....is it a big request?

reality check....I have to learn not to make up stories in my mind...about how should a situation go...I should learn to be patient and I should remember that miracles do happen.. so don't give up and stay put..because its coming ...I can feel it....I want to be on my best behaviour when it comes...